Wednesday, August 17, 2005
I love my job, although I must admit I am not great at it. I love talking with youth, getting to know them, learning with them, and ultimately sharing Jesus. There are many hard times when it feels like I am not making any kind of impact or I am not good at what I am doing, or some one more qualified should do this. But ultimately I am thankful that I have the privilege to share Jesus with anyone, and that I am paid for that… I was thinking about that the other day, would I do this (my work) if I was not paid, would I sacrifice my time (often my family time) and do this ministry if I was in lay position? Would I reschedule my time for youth? Would I do what it takes? My answer is yes…although I thought about that for a VERY long time. I think this ministry and the joy I receive in it (yes I do have joy in doing it, although sometimes I seem fed up) is part of my gifting that I have, and ultimately I can use this gift to: “…always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the HOPE that you have…” (I Pet. 3:15) And I do have hope, and often working with youth, Hope is the only word that can describe what keeps you going. But at the end of the day I see hope for the youth, I see the joy and the life that can invade their lives, and transform them, no matter the past…I have hope! It has been refreshing to think this morning about HOPE, I have forgotten to focus on Hope for a long time, and thoughts of death, purpose, loose ends have been in my thoughts, but today Hope has really invaded my space and I love it…what a wonderful word, hope.