Monday, August 08, 2005

Service...Obedience...

I have recently finished reading: The Great Divorce, by C.S. Lewis. What a passionate view of God and heaven, what a wonderful comforting place for all to choose…Lewis also has a great way of illustrating how selfish and self absorbed we tend to be…He puts it very well that even with heaven in front of us, sinful and full of self-centered ideas we likely would reject it…as we often do everyday on earth. What would make it any different in the afterlife? The choices of many characters in this afterlife are also the product of their choices on earth, and they can no longer see heaven for what it is, and choose isolation, loneliness and ultimately hell.
It’s scary to see how easy it is for me to get caught up in arguments and proving that I am right, as if that matters….In the book there was a character that is confronted with the opportunity to go to heaven (all the characters are given this opportunity in the book), but he has all the right answers about “theology” about God about Heaven, that he can’t even see that he is in HELL…he argues with the heavenly creatures and ultimately chooses hell, because there he has a theology club, where they puff themselves up with their knowledge and their “right” ideas. He ultimately chose Hell, because heaven did not fit HIS understanding… It’s sad how I could see some of my own characteristics appear on the pages of C.S. Lewis’s book. The desire to have the right answers to know…rather then do…
It is no wonder obedience is our call, servant hood, mercy, compassion as Jeff preached this past Sunday. So much of my experience (it is a bit limited) with the church, that when problems arrive as they always do (as my parents church is experiencing) is often found in people arguing about trite ideas of who is right who has the right answer…I often hear (sadly even from my loved ones): “why can’t THEY just see it… or if they only understood ME….or if they only knew the Bible like I do, like its suppose to be understood” they are all such self-centered arguments….even if they are RIGHT…often my response is to think in my head how self-centered they are and if they only understood this as I do…WHAT! Wait a minute my own response is also self-centered self glorified, pumped up, self overvalued… ( I hear someone somewhere echoing me “I have a BA”….GIL…) …How much better would it be if I chose to serve the church instead of proving my self right to the church….

2 comments:

Gil said...

That's a pretty disturbing character in the Great Divorce. I saw myself there too a bit. We spend so much time making sure we're right. I wonder if our efforts are truly in God's service or for the sake of our own personal security (this is who I am, don't threaten me). Good thoughts here.

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